save yourself

last post would have been strange, had a headache so it might have screwed with my thinking.

it's been good having time to myself. it's good to reflect amidst such business. in these times of dormancy though, i have had to refine my purpose in life and rejuvenate as a human being. it's been bloody hard; however i can honestly say that i've confronted my insecurities and have provided mechanisms to appease these insecurities. i know my weak spots at this stage in the game.

one thing that is the backbone of these mechanisms is the notion of self belief. without believing in one's self, your identity will be malleable and your social bearings will be vulnerable. You have to save yourself before you help others, and dismissing your suffering is not the way to go. Tackling the problems in your life is the way to go. My own perspective of self worth has been a bit shaky these last few weeks, but i've picked it up again. it's a good feeling to stand on one's dignity again :)

everybody who reads this, believe in who you are and what you have. don't be afraid of falling, for through that cinder heap you will find the answer.

formal coming up. same day as bro's b'day. should be a very busy day hehehe. i might drink one bottle of beer; that way i won't see drop bears in Chris' backyard.

have a great one, catch ya when i do :)