even though i'm on my own, i know that i'm not alone

this year has been fun :)
i hope everybody had a good easter, mother's day etc. it's good to spend time with the ones around you that you love.
update on my life?
2yr dryspell broken. i will know when the time is right for the perfect girl, but it's good to satisfy the oxytocin and testostorone in the meantime.

my band, Pejorist, is going well. look us up on facebook, we will be recording june-august.

i'm off travelling in a month. i will be gone for 2months to europe and the USA to find myself through family, friends and music. i work at mcdonalds to subsidise my trip.

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it's interesting looking back to the past, and seeing how you've changed, how you've stayed the same, and observe the same with the people around you.
for one, i don't say sorry for every single thing that goes on around me. i've also let go of some responsibility for other people's problems. taking time to respect one's self is far more efficient. if you have to give all of yourself to others, you might as well find out what 'all of yourself' means, integrity and dignity attached.

although i do miss the nice guy in me, and try to bring him out as much as possible :P

i've experimented. i've resisted. i've gained. i've lost. i've learnt.
but i take responsibility for everything that has happened to me.

distance draws people apart, but absence makes the heart grow fonder. the important friends always come back, and moments that transpire with these important ones are always refreshing. very relevant as humankind depends on mutualism and consistency for comfort.

i miss the times when all i knew was how to catch pokemon on gameboy, when every little triviality meant so much to me. but opening up to the present and the future is much more rewarding than aforementioned 'ignorant bliss'.
being strung-out by work or school is so unnecessary in the long run. cos life is a plethora, so many realms to explore, so many experiences to cherish.


hope all is well with uni/gap year guys! keep your hopes up high and your heads down low :)

justin

although our bodies grow stiffer with time, let's not let the same thing happen to our minds

o my goodness goodness!
an interesting time ahead. whilst many are off to university, a barren landscape lays for those taking a GAP year. a lonely time? I don't think so. Humans have to grab the bull by the horns when it comes to their future.

what's new so far?
I quit my job as a waiter at a Chinese restaurant...and got hired by Maccas! A downgrade? not really, it's 10 mins walk from my house, and I get paid more than 8 an hour.
I've met a few lovely characters at work. One's just so out there, open-minded yet reserved. we shall see what happens, because like me, she is quite unpredictable.
she did weed with me and smitty first time we met. that says something about her character.
my dream of starting a band is becoming more crystallised. first jam with a new drummer and bassist tomorrow, and i'm stoked as to how quick everything has happened.

prayers to Japan, and any country affected by the Pacific Rim earthquake/cyclones <3
the implications of the recent natural disasters are enormous, especially with nuclear infection being involved.

I hope that everyone is keeping well, safe, happy! Feel valued and fortunate to have such a colourful life :)

justin

holy shit

i try not to curse often
but oh my gosh, i feel special

there are some moments in life that cannot be repeated. these unbelievable moments are what we live for, as we purge our anxieties and past life, and step forward to the future with a clean slate, and a composed, tranquil and peaceful state of mind.

thank you to everyone who attended ROCKOFF yesterday! I feel so grateful to have a community of friends who are so generous and optimistic in their support.
Kalaharis, thank you for making us feel good! Your professionalism serves as an inspiration to any aspiring musician.
MK Delta, thank you for a gung-ho set, the PA, and the audio engineering you provided on the night!
I wish the above bands all the best for the future as they have a lot to offer in the rock arena. They're both very generous, and all round bonza individuals :)

Before I forget, I must thank B X TRA. Now many people might have noticed an Asian guy playing piano/violin whilst you were coming in. This man (real name bingxue) got back to me within one day of invitations. Commitment and talent right there. Hats off to you!

And who could forget my fellow cover musicians. You guys have coped with so much schedule-moving and a very erratic Justin. Thank you so much for performing with me!
Jerome Gilbert
Chris Smart
Nick Power
Michael Fernando
Dylan Smith
Jack Mason (who also provided lights and smoke machine. All the best for the future my friend, you deserve it!)
Nathan Harding
Kieran Lim
Tom Spink
Joe Fountain
James Faithfull

Roadies: Alastair Coulthard, David Cavallo
Artwork: Billy Exton
Setup: Jeremy Nolan (Hope you enjoy Tassie, Jezz), Braiden Asciak, Jackson Chen, Declan Hutchings, Kat Wong, Alex McKinlay (sorry if I forgot anybody)

A tremendous group operation guys! couldn't have done it without you :)

We have raised over $200, people! This is going to flood affected individuals in Queensland. If I can get around to it, I might do some screen printing, print Will Exton's image onto T-Shirts, and they'll go on sale for $10, all proceeds to Queensland again. If you're interested, let me know :) it's a good reminder of the night.

i am indebted to everyone who came. thanks for the love :)
feel good, stay safe, have fun this year!
Justin

something need doin?

oh my
what a weekend! learned so much these last few days, it's not funny.
1) mates are important in life. bros before hos; HOWEVER, it is always good to have a balance of both.
2) living in the moment is fun, just don't let alcohol alter your behaviour too much
3) business cards are a great way of meeting people :)
4) nice guys finish last. girls don't like push-overs for a hookup or bf.
5) if you're insecure, stroke the furry wall :P nah, if you're insecure, drinking more alcohol does not help.
6) i'll sleep anywhere, so long as it gives me a good night's sleep.
7) started working at a chinese restaurant as a waiter, and officially stuffed up 4 orders today. regardless of how much customers and workers yell at you, keep composed, and don't be too hard on yourself.
8) if you're stressed, don't beat yourself up about it. talking to friends is a lot more therapeutic.
9) self esteem is the esteem of your freaking self! find ways of making yourself feel important.

yeh busy at this end. ROCKOFF! soon too...along with b'day in a few days. i'm taking life one day at a time.

hope all is well with everyone :)
justin

i chase the sun

" I did what I wanted to do. What I've done, I've done with sincerity and to the best of my ability. You can't expect much more from life" Bruce Lee

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hello everyone!
i trust you are having an awesome time before uni, partying, being busy etc.
yeh it's been pretty busy here, I must admit. the whole ROCKOFF! thing i'm organising for my b'day is definitely a learning experience. it can get a little overwhelming at times, but i love my music, so you'll be seeing me performing up on stage on the 19th of feb :) divulging the figments of my ego hahahha

as long as we remind ourselves of our life goals, needs and wants, as long as we love the people around us, and live the moment, nothing really matters.
for me, i find it very hazardous that my life is bent on music now. but i'm taking life one step at a time this yr, i've earned this year off.

stress is a funny thing sometimes. some of the time it's totally self-induced. sometimes there are factors beyond our control that poke us in the arse to grow as individuals. the important thing is composure. regulation of the mind, body and soul.

momentum is energy. forward is the way. progression rather than regression. make everyday count. but also take time to relax each day. humanity is beautiful, flaws and perfections attached.

stay healthy, keep safe, have fun!

Justin x

happy new year! :)

the colours that align our landscapes are numerous. life is like a canvas, make something beautiful out of it.

happy new year everyone! humble apologies for overdue blog, this is just letting you know i'm alive and relatively stable hehehe
much thanks to ellen and nicky p for having their houses available for recent parties :)

change is scary sometimes. people grow, life grows. life is fruitful, and we should feel happy for everything we have and the people in our lives atm.
admittedly, i have felt a bit of stagnancy lately in how i approach others. but ah well, i guess this little chap needs a rest from jumping around too much :P

and as we stride towards the future, let's be open. life's too short.
the placid face. the hyperactive face. the composed one. the emotionally unstable one.
yes my life is temperamental. but i guess i like my true colours. :)
hope everybody's safe, secure, happy! do what you want to do in your life, and respect/value yourself. cherish your aspirations. balance it with your needs.

much love
Justin