where the tide's ebb and flow is all our minds really know

elllo guys :)
i trust that everybody is content with their results. i hope that your future remains open to the realm of possibility. aren't we all thrust to a world of great change now? the road forks, and in the distance a bright star awaits, only to be chased by a lost and restless sojourner.

it's been interesting on this side. queenscliff wasn't too bad, metallica was awesome, and the 18th's that i've been to have been quite satisfying. kudos to gab, anne and liba!
i thought that getting my results would finally steer me to a road of resolution, and provide me with opportunities to absolve my weaknesses. instead, i have come to realise and accept that our weaknesses are as valuable as our strengths, and that on walking the road of life, your weaknesses and strengths stand hand in hand with each other.
cutting out my heart for somebody else isn't leading me to the life i wish to have. sincerity has been one of my strengths, but it also means that you are prone to more suffering, criticism and solitude than ever. opening up myself is the only way i learn, and my vulnerability stands on a tightrope every day of my life. this is why i'm pretty temperamental, hence why i need music to neutralise my mood.

i want to pursue my musical ventures soon.
i think i will go overseas sometime next year.
most likely a gap year.
i accept a rocky love life.
i have a feeling that my friends will be at the bedrock of which i define australia. australia is my home.
and as stephen blackpool said, 'i must do it, not to brave you, but to live'

for my 18th in February, i'm thinking of organising a gig at my church hall. it is an unlicensed premise, so covers can be played, no royalties to be paid. be warned though, it has lots of reverb lol, so naturally the bass can be turned down :P
i feel that i need to give back to all those who have defined me. who knows, you might not see me again for 5 months or so after february. any musicians who just want to play (and perhaps gain income depending on numbers), come see me :)

i feel that in the next few months we will be reborn, the cocoon in which we were so enconsced will expand, our ego boundaries exposed to more definition than ever. i cherish the people closest to me, the experiences i've had, the places i've seen, and the lessons i've learnt.
there will be notions/people to cling to. there will be farewells.
apart from stating the obvious, moving on from a stage of life like this will test us. hopefully i can see you on the other side, cos believe me, i want to keep in contact with as many people as possible. i value you.

no life is perfect, but once one accepts fear, suffering, death, sorrow, then his/her outlook on life is injected by a desire to learn, live and love.

best wishes for your future decisions. i might post before xmas, but if not, merry xmas! enjoy good times with good company.

thanks for being you,
justin