how do we say goodbye if we've hardly said hello?

hey guys!
hope everybody's enjoying a restful break. whether it be going away with friends (i'm off to queenscliff in a few days), hanging here in melbourne, or having a job, i'm sure we can all agree to an extent that having a lot of time to ourselves is a lot better than school.
although i do miss the community aspect of school, the fast paced nature, the drama, the microcosm that houses ignorance and the bliss of other's company. if only life was so simple...

title is taken from Bring Me The Horizon. although the song is about one night stands, it raises a good point about how much friendship means to us, and the connections that we forge with exterior landscapes in order to gain a sense of stability (you can tell I am missing Y12 english context already :P)

i beat myself internally about what i want in my life, and how it contradicts what i need. i have been told i think too much, but still, it's a little daunting to realise that you will only keep in mutual contact with 10-20 friends in less than 3 months from now. the instability of what i see before me is palpable.

Solitude VS Change. Overseas VS Melbourne. GAP year VS University. Music Industry VS good asian commerce course in Melbourne or Monash.

I am apprehensive of the future. but i know i have to move on from some things in my life, and wipe a clean slate.

i am a little bit of a scatterbrain of emotions, but i guess i just want what every human wants: a sense of constancy against a wave of overwhelming instability.

until 13th of December, I will have fun, party hard, unleash rockstar and whatnot, be a bachelor and whatnot. once 13th of December approaches, an agenda will basically be plotted in a week re next year.

bring on suffering! see the brighter side of it :)
justin