hello everyone
i pray that everyone finds time to nourish themselves, and believe in who they are, who they're with, and why they are here on this earth. Whenever I revisit self purpose, I am reinvigorated and energised, and it is the only reason I wake up in the morning. Believing in what's behind me, what's before me, and what's happening to me, and the people of my life, is the only reason I'm not surrendering, and dropping out of school tomorrow.
We surge forward, a tide that acts as one. We face seas of adversity, which attempts to engulf and supercede our consciences. These next few months will be quick; however, pressures will envelope in and out our mind, body and soul.
I must say I've been feeling the heat of school, and I am sick of being propounded by unnecessary pressures. These have brought to light what is absent in my life, which seeks to threaten my everyday confidence.
Yes. Let's revert to something men talk about at face value, but cannot recognise and organise at its deepest recesses. GIRLS!!! I feel torn that I can't share myself with a girl, and I don't mean teenage lust bullshit that you find in any joeblow relationship, I want the real thing where I can display my affections to another girl, and understand them, caress them, complement them.
But I can't act upon impetuous desire now, for they are nascent and unjustified. Let's ride on to the night, man up, and know that in the future, girls will come when they come.
When you go to bed every single night, reassess your day.
1) Are you exhausted?
2) Have you done what you've wanted to achieve today?
3) Physically and mentally, was there anything you could have achieved but didn't today?
These questions dictate the last seconds of my day. Similar questions are asked when I wake up, ie "What do you want to achieve today etc.?" and "are you enjoying your life?"
if i respond negatively to the latter, I sleep in :P
it's tough. but hang in there. Light is within us, and light is before us.
Justin
read and understood
ReplyDeletehaha Justin :D
ReplyDeleteI like reading your posts, they are so eloquently phrased and insightful~
Ganbatte ne!
Hang in there ^^
I guess it's good you know to wait and do not desperately look for a relationship.. such silly people who do that = = seriously if it was just out of loneliness or go-with-the-flow anyone would do = =
Don't worry, in good time you will meet someone for sure. Good things take time right?
I'm a little sick of school too and exam anxiety is getting closer and closer.. T_T
but stick it out, and look forward to summer holidays yeah? ^_^
It's too cold in the mornings so I want to sleep in T_T
bei xi my friend!
ReplyDeletethanks lol. I like reading your posts too :)
hope you're hanging in there too, only 2 more months to go...
i think a lot of people are sick, and sick of school, and sick of home and stuff like that. Such turbulent times. But important to savour the breaths of our youth every now and then.
and towards summer hols, we surge on :)
i really hope this post does not come back to haunt me. Rockstars have a mysterious attraction of karma and irony. Can't help but to voice opinion on an sensitive element of pop culture though :P
heheh i know what you mean about the cold mornings. my heater turns off just before i wake up brrrrr
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